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think i ́ll stay in bed today
rather dream the day away nothing of the worldly kind
should attempt to change my mind
fear in my mind
who threw the anker, pulling me into the dark? fearless inside,
you spread the anger, pulling me into the dark
through my pane the morning sun shines, for a new day has begun
it makes me mad, it hurts my eyes illuminates everything that i despise
so i ́m letting the shutters down
think i ́ll stay in bed today, outside of these four walls, there ́s nothing left for me
i ́d rather chase my ghosts today, anyway, from today,
i ́m a ghost too
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2. |
Lost Generation
05:11
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listening to the rain, trying to keep calm thinking of all the words you said to me though it ́s not even worth it
all your nonsense is far beyond me
uninformed but an opinion on everything
with your careless smile no matter where you go then again, what really matters in your superficial life celebrating, grating
and i put no trust in our lost generation this is not a fools exaggeration
as some like to say
i often noticed
your ridiculous demands
center of attention solely reserved just for you
welcome to a world where everything ́s offensive careful what you say, you might upset someone, for real take it away, take it away
their righteous indignation truly sickens me, annoys me
deeply offended by, hypothetically, everything everyone ever said and with everything i say and do i ́m triggering the butthurt, absurd they ́ve got the
long term impact of a throw away package straining this world with their useless baggage loud obnoxious pricks
you still want to be loved, by each and everyone
but you ́re still scared of
other peoples opinions, no to you they make no sense
i hoped you were just joking, for i like to joke a lot but with every attempt, they
scream like toddlers, light the flame
what a nerve, oh what a shame
he ́s pathetic and insane
if there ́s always a way to offend you
then i ́ll never run out of things to do
see cause this time, the cleverer won ́t give in
if there ́s always a way to offend you
then i ́ll never run out of things to do
when you ́re angry and you scream like a brat you ́re hilarious, drop dead
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Falling Away
07:43
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everything just falls apart
the moment i come around could it be coincidence
or providence, forever bound
it sticks with me, how? how come everything i see is falling away from me
and endlessly, why?
how come everything i touch is just falling away from me?
like a stranger passing by,
you rise to a new life.
pulling everything and everyone i ́ve known on your side
it sticks with me, how? how come everything i see is falling away from me?
and endlessly, why?
how come everything i touch is just falling away from me
like sand running through my fingers, my life is still falling away, falling away
everyone, just leave in the dark, cause apparently if i ́m near, any luck seems to disappear
everything i know,
everything i touch,
everything i see is just falling away from me
everybody turns,
every wording burns,
everything i see is just falling away from me
turning all the lights off, dreaming
and when i ́m not dreaming, i ́m screaming everything is falling, falling away
i can feel your satisfactory grin there, as i smash my furniture in despair. every thought you ́ve left behind, rest ́s within my broken mind.
and fades away
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Sleep In The Forest
06:20
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there ́s something in my soul a deep and dreary hole
ever expanding
im trying to rip it out, wanting to grab it,
but it ́s backwards-bending
then again i ́m at the kitchen sink, throwing up everything and it stinks
like stale and ancient air, i ́m leaning on my chair, but the hole ́s still there.
you ́re taking care of it, just took a dump in it, it ́s well hydrated.
soon in my dreams i ́ll see big trees of green as peculiar voices talk to me.
no, this hole, it won ́t go away, it ́s there to annoy and stay. hey, just dream away
just dream away,
lost and astray, you ́re here to stay
there ́s something in my head,
while lying in my bed old memories play out
these thoughts keep haunting me, singled out of my flawed reality
i ́m awake and still dissatisfied,
so i just want to sleep warm and tight.
no this pressure won ́t go away, it ́s there to annoy and stay, hey, just dream away,
just dream away,
lost and astray, you ́re here to stay
all those people, the things they say, it ́s just driving you insane,
hey, just dream away,
just dream away,
lost and astray, you ́re here to stay.
i wake in a glowing green,
but is it a waking dream?
and these voices keep calling me.
leave your sorrow behind,
and exorcise this demon from the jungle of your mind. you ́ll have to sleep in the forest, at least tonight.
no this pressure won ́t go away, it ́s there to annoy and stay, hey, just dream away,
just dream away,
lost and astray, you ́re here to stay
all those people, the things they say, it ́s just driving you insane,
hey, just dream away,
just dream away,
lost and astray, you ́re here to stay.
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Tempest Of Laughter
17:02
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pt.1 the further
and so i wander in the dark
fearing your memory left a mark
on this lonely soul and frozen heart subconciously drifting into spheres i ́ve never known before
setting my foot into this world peculiar voices never heard humming a melody
that resonates within my skull
there is still regret
for most of what i ́ve done as yet i can ́t rewind nor ease my mind i ́ve put my trust in you
and i will never do that again
once in my life i ́ve put my trust in you but everything that i would try to give you passed you by and failed to stay with you
and all the words you said
still echo in my head
steadily
it ́s not that i believe them
but they're crushing nonetheless
once in my life i tried to love someone
but every time that i would try to make clear how i feel, there was always this fear.
that you would turn away,
for reasons unexplained
then i already knew that
you would leave me in the dark
cause it always went down that way what should that differ now anyway? yeah cause it always went down this way why should that differ now anyway?
why should that differ now anyway?
pt.2 tempest of laughter
it ́s a dark and stormy night
trees are falling down by the wayside branches bending over me,
pointing out the way to my mental disruption
a sudden flash of lightning streaks through the jungle canopy rolling thunder slowly creeps into my sanity
and wind keeps sweeping by
heavy rain,
rain on me,
wash the mud and the pain away
then i ́m empty, empty, empty
deepest rage, loudest screams, is all that stays, stays with me
running in the dark
i saw something creep, deep in the deep a silhouette pitch black
close on my heels
constantly
who are you inside?
just call, shine a light
the green and black is too wide such a dark jungle night
i ́m absorbed in dreams tonight, what ever you want to let me know, don ́t wake me up,
no you won ́t wake me up
just hang up cause i ́m so sick, tired of everything in my life, leave me alone,
oh just leave me alone
think i ́ll stay in bed today,
nothing you, or anyone could ever say would change my mind,
no you won ́t change my mind.
it ́s not like you even care go on
woke up in tears
thought that i heard a scream
but everything that I could make out pitch black room, not a single sound
maybe I should get up
but I can ́t move nor breathe
as I ́m gasping for air
you look at me with that black monstrous stare
the walls are closing in
and I ́m still trapped within
I hear my bones crushing and
laughter, laughter, laughter
you ́re in my mind to stay
why should that differ now anyway? yeah, cause it always went down this way why should that differ now anyway?
why should that differ now anyway?
i heard them whispering in the trees humming their haunted melody
wander away
into this strange and darkened jungle night
there is still regret
for most of what i ́ve done as yet i can ́t rewind nor ease my mind i tried to love someone
and i will never do that again
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6. |
Twilight Forest
06:42
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once the twilight forest flourishes in your mind you can never leave it never leave it behind
a twisted, dark reflection of your subconscious mind a wicked incarnation
of otherworldly kind
seen as how my head is filled with gruesome, dark obscurity ́s it is hardly surprising,
that i see what i just see
reminds me of the real world
this ones not off concrete though undergrowth with dark green glow
there is a presence,
and i ́m convinced it ́s her. i can hear her breathing, quietly in despair.
and it seems the more i think of her, the closer she will come.
figured i need to wipe her from this darkened mind, leave this thing from the past behind.
maybe then i ́ll wake again,
but it ́s not working
since i let her alter all the ways
in which i act and feel
her void caused an reflection inner darkness that will never heal
reminds me of the real girl
of her
pulling me into the dark
here she ́s grey like concrete though vicious eyes with dark green glow
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7. |
Dark Green Glow
09:24
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when i woke up
in the dark green glow
there was just one leaf in the darkness the only source of light
it fell down, fell into the black then as all light finally perished i heard a river flow.
deep in that darkness i wander alone
followed it downstream
felt like an eternity
but the stream split in two
and there were voices in the air
was it you?
was it me?
how come we both could not agree?
am i right?
am i wrong?
but yet in spite of all
i ́ll never let you win
i am right where i ́m supposed to be now and i ́ll defy your stare
show me your dark green glow
since you won ́t let me go
till ́ this dream comes crushing down
soon the stream ceased
the black got darker then
and i felt in my chest
this must ́ve been the wrong way still i can ́t see a thing
show yourself
your false pride
queen it over me with childish insults yet again, you let me
wander aimlessly
that ́s what i always did since i can remember
i ́ll never let you win
i am right where i ́m supposed to be now and i ́ll defy your stare
show me your dark green glow
since you won ́t let me go
till ́ this dream comes crushing down
i saw you in the real world you had green glowing eyes and i could not help it
so i ́m just
chasing after the disaster ever after
the darkness closes in with a swarm of crows croaking somewhere close
the voices in my head, telling me to run,
the end is begun
you took the best of me,
all my sobriety, i ́ll
let it go, but then your feelings still won ́t show
my eyes, starting to sting,
with a concrete mass, raining down on me it dries on my skin
making a crust i can not move in
you took the best of me,
all my sobriety, i ́ll
let it go, but then your feelings still won ́t show
i saw you in the real world,
at first i thought you were not so deeply rooted in all it ́s lies
i felt you in the darkness,
your hands were grabbing my throat felt you in the darkness
slowly gripping
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Jessica
02:31
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9. |
Remember Me
08:21
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i still recall every little moment that we ́ve shared, what about you?
if i were to decease, would you at least shed a single tear on my passing?
still i feel trembling in my hands but i ́m awake now as it stands
turn on the tv, the lights and the radio
why is it that i can ́t escape the ghost of her?
i ́m still upset of the darkness that i ́ve seen so i open the shutters (up)
as i look at the street and the blackened night-sky the deep grey concrete buildings make me cry should i get up for this cruel misguided world?
will it remember me?
i don ́t know if it will remember me i ́m a ghost
once in my life i knew what was good for me
i gave it all up for things that don ́t mean a thing to me and for you, you knew that with certainty
maybe i should retrace
all my steps in life until everything went to hell and i became this broken empty shell
as there ́s still regret
for most of what i ́ve done as yet i shall decide to put it aside
as for this dark, cruel world it puts no trust in me
i put no trust in it
agreed, agreed
even
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Even
03:56
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well, i don ́t like you
just plain simple, that is true
so why should it matter now?
what you think is no concern to me
if you don ́t agree
that ́s what ́s going on in me so just let it be
yeah
love just turned to hate
and of hate i ́m not afraid
it is love that raises ire
that of course just in my eye
and you, if you don ́t agree that ́s what ́s going on in me and
i realize that i was just hypnotized
listen closely
as my thoughts are finally free
listen closely
cause i ́m ready now to see
that i won ́t be
what you wanted me to be
and because i ́m different you ́re indifferent to me
if you stayed and never turned
i should really be concerned
for you to like me through and through i have to be an asshole too
again
if you don ́t agree
that ́s what ́s going on in me, and my thoughts are free
i realize that i was just hypnotized
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